Gracy Boes

WELL-INTENTIONED RELATIVES


she talks about my beauty in the past tense
reminds me I was not always this size
says that fat is not my fault
mails me diet tips clipped from magazines
and is shocked when I tell her I have an eating disorder

when I finish telling him about the years I spent
punishing myself for not having the perfect body
he asks me if I will ever make a significant change
to my physical appearance and offers to pay for a personal trainer

with teary eyes they tell me they are worried
they will outlive me
read an article about death by obesity
assume this story will finally get through to me
don’t know that I already tried to
kill myself for not being small

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